March 2, 2014

Change of scene.

I think that no matter how old you are and what you are doing with you life at the moment, there comes a time when you just need a change. It doesn't mean that you hate the place that you are, or the people or the environment. I am a firm believer that changing, usually (very important the "usually" here), brings something good and in the saying that, when one door closes another one opens.. or something like that.
To narrow it down to my life experience (not that I have lot of it, I'm just 21 years old), my time to change came 6 months ago. I was feeling like I hated everyone and everything and that nothing was working and that my life was not going anywhere.. (oooh, the joys of being in your twenties..).
So I started to think what should I do. Get a job ? Nooo, too much work and I'm still studying. "Break  up" with all my friends and get new ones ? I don't like them right now, but I love them so much. Change degrees ? No way, I already put one and a half years of my life in this university, I'm not changing now !
And then the idea came to me, why don't I do an exchange program ? I always wanted to live outside my country, I love traveling and I can't stand this city anymore. Yes, I thought, that's what I'm going to do.
And that's what I did. I got in the website of my university looked at all their exchange programs and with a lot of bumps on the road, anxiety, fear, doubts and all that jazz.. I finally did it !
I got on a plane to Nice ( South of France ), alone, not sure if I had a place to live or if I was going to be homeless (because the lovely student's residence didn't answer my emails) and not speaking the french very well. But at least I had a friend that was going to meet me there so I wasn't completly alone. 
So my point with all of that blabbering is that, I know that changing is hard, but at least for me was not just worth it, but completly necessary. And now that the experience is over and that I'm back safe and sound at home I can see that, honestly it was the best time of life. It was unbelievably hard at first (let's just say that my mom put up with a lot of crying on skype ), but when I started to accept the things that were different and just roll with it, things got really really amazing.
My advice to people that are thinking about doing something similiar to this is : stop finding excuses and JUST DO IT. And if you regret it (wich I think and hope you won't ) you can always go back home and pretend that it never happend !
Hope everybody is having a great day !


                                                                                      Michele Mattos 

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