October 27, 2019

The Next Step.

I'm finding myself currently at a crossroad. It's not a fun one, because I have this weird feeling that no matter what road I take it won't lead to good, happy things and I'm desperately in need of some good, happy things in my life.  I know you're wondering: "what did this girl do to find herself in such an unfortunate situation?" And, honestly, I don't have no clue. I thought I was doing a good job so far. It just goes to show that the universe has a weird way of working things out. I have complete faith that things will work out, I'm just bit anxious about it at the moment. 

Maybe I should elaborate more on the topic in the hopes of being understood a bit better. I can't give too much information because this is a situation that I'm currently living and it's hard to share details about your personal life on the internet. I love the internet, but people can be cruel and nasty in the comments and I don't need that right now. Not you, I'm sure you're a wonderful personal with only nice things to say about everybody. 

So, life has been crazy. I've talked about this before here on the blog and I feel like this is quite a relatable topic. Everyone's life is crazy. People do too much or are expected to do too much these days and that's not healthy. In my humble opinion, that's why the number of mental illnesses has skyrocketed and that's why I started to consciously do less. You can read all about my Doing Less Project here on the blog - that's right, we're calling it a project now.

But, anyway.. here I am at a crossroads and I don't know which road to take. I'm not fond of either one, but I'm constantly pressuring myself to just choose one and live with the lesser of two evils. I keep telling myself "I don't have a choice" when in reality we always have a choice: you can always take yourself out of the equation. Not choosing is a choice that people, including me, often forget. However, society keeps telling us that we must choose. You can't not have a job or a husband or a plan for the future. You have to choose. But, do I? Do we? 

Why can't we just live our lives in our own terms? We keep telling everybody to choose what's best for them, but I don't think we are ready to embrace what that means. When someone does something outside of the norm, it scares us because it's different. It makes us question our own choices. "What do you mean Michele is not choosing anything?", "Can she even do that?" or "Well, I had to choose so...". We create all these rules about what it means to be an adult that we forget that there are many different paths to take. And I've come to realize that the people that don't forget that are the people driving blissfully in their own lanes.

I have no idea what I'm going to do. I don't know if I have what it takes to defend my own ideals and just do what's best for me. I don't know if I can take the criticism, even though I know deep down it is what will make me happier and more fulfilled. However, I feel like nobody feels 100% confident when taking the next step. And also, nobody talks about their insecurities when it comes to taking the next step. Making a choice, taking the road less traveled is extremely difficult. You can't live your life without making any choices, because like I said before: not making a choice is always a choice. 

Have you even taken the road less traveled? 

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October 18, 2019

Doing Less and Being an Adult.

I'm happy to report that my Doing Less Challenge is bringing me quite a lot of joy. I had a pretty great week and I think I'm finally getting the hang of this whole focusing-on-the-positive thing. The whole point of this project (it's not really a project, but we'll call it that for now) is to just be happy and in order to do that, I'm cutting out the things from my to-do list that don't bring me joy and that I'm actually able to cut out. We will always have things to do that don't particularly bring joy into our lives (like doing dishes), but sure as hell can cut off "reorganizing my bathroom counters". 

This week I focused on making me happy. I know this may sound kinda selfish, but I needed a whole lot of me time. I feel like when you're an adult, a lot of your time is still dictated by others - but in a different way. You have to worry about work and organizing your house and doing the dishes and keeping your pets and plants alive and family obligations. A lot of our time and attention is requested and that's fine - most of the time. It is what it is and sometimes you need to just suck it up and get things done. 

HOWEVER, some other times, enough is enough and you need to get off the hamster wheel. Life is not just about obligations and making other people happy. You need to focus on yourself because.. you know what? You can't pour from an empty cup. That's actually one of my favorite quotes. In order to help others, you need to help yourself first. You can't be a good mom or a good daughter, if you're feeling burned out and stressed. 

So, this week was hella good! I watched a lot of TV, I read my book and even started a new one, I went on a lot of walks and I drank plenty of while wine. I enjoyed myself. I did less. And, shockingly, I still managed to keep up with all of my obligations and to be a functional part of society. The world is not going to colapse if you take a break or focus on yourself for a change. I highly recommend it actually. I had a pretty amazing week.

How do you feel about doing less? 
What do you do for self-care?

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October 16, 2019

Celebrating Small Wins // I FINISHED A BOOK!

I'm currently trying out a new lifestyle. There's not much to it other than doing less. I've just decided that I've been too stressed and I've been tackling too many projects at once and I'm just so tired. I feel tired all the time and I'm tired of that. So, I've basically been chilling in my free time. Reading books, going for walks when I feel like it and just overall relaxing. I'm not neglecting work, let's just put that out there because I know some people will feel judgy when I say that. In regards to work, I'm still super focused and striving to be the best teacher that I can. This doing less project comes into play when it comes to side projects and that whole myth of "being productive all the time". 

Funny enough, the day I start to be less productive is the day that I accomplish something pretty amazing. I finished almost an entire book in one day! If that's not a small win, I don't know what is! My doing less project started last weekend. I had a four-day weekend and with that came a lot of free time to think about my life and how I was feeling. I quickly realized that I wasn't truly happy and fulfilled. I kept striving to do more all the time and I felt like all that productivity wasn't making me feel any less accomplished or happy. So, what's the opposite of doing more? DOING LESS! Brownie points for you if you got there all by yourself!

So, that's what I've been doing. It's mostly a lot of reading and walking, which are all things that center me and calm my anxiety. And apparently it's been working great because I already have a small win I'd like to celebrate: finally finishing up a book! I feel like it's important to celebrate small wins in life because it's fun and we need more fun and happiness and smiles in the world!

I really enjoyed this book. It was incredibly fun and informative. The author talks a lot about living with mental illness, but in a fun way. I love the humor and the way she tells her stories. I highly recommend it if you're looking for a new read!  

Do you have a small win you would like to celebrate too? 

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